Ok, life is a bit better today. Still hectic but my outlook is much improved. Bubba still cried when I dropped him at preschool, but his teacher assured me that he had a great day after I left. I actually volunteered in crim pro class and my answer didn't suck, so that's always positive. But, the highlight of my day was work.
I really, really like the work I'm doing. I was so resistant to doing policy work because that's what I did in my pre-law school life, but you know, policy is kinda fun and, as an added bonus, it's a total power trip, which us controlling Type A folks just love.
I mean think about it: I write policies that dictate what other people can and cannot do. Not just policies either but rules of civil procedure, too. So, I (and a bunch of other super bright and experienced professionals) get to tell other lawyers what to do.
Recently, my boss sat down with the governor and pitched an idea to him for a committee and he approved it then and there. She then hinted that she knows someone who would make a really good Assistant Director for the committee (moi!), and he trusts her recommendation because they are really good friends.
I know it's nerd work, but, let's not kid ourselves, it's not clown school, it's law school. Sure, policy work is not particularly lucrative, but the intangible benefits are great. And, according to a litigator-turned-stay-at-home-mom, policy work can lead to BIGLAW firm life after only four short years - if one so chooses. So, the upside? I have job security. Downside: I'm still a nerd and the governor will know if I fail the bar exam.